with my roommate tonight. And I feel on top of the world. I haven’t done it since this time last year. But I feel great. It feels so good to be back exercising again. The past month I’ve had shin splints and haven’t been diligent about doing other exercise regularly other than yoga once a week. Exercise has been my life saver these past few months- I have been on one long, cruel emotional roller coaster and exercise is really the only thing that helps. And I have no doubt that these last few weeks have been extra difficult for me because I haven’t been exercising as regularly. But it just feels great and can’t no body hold me down!
My coworker and her long distance boyfriend broke up this past weekend and my heart just feels for her because I was exactly there 2-3 months ago. I’m still a mess about it but I told her that exercising saved my life. Yes, I lost weight bc I lost my appetite for a good month but exercising was really the only thing that kept me going. Especially because I’ve felt really alone most of the time going through it all and w/ exercise you have no one to count on but yourself. It’s all about you and only you and you don’t have to rely on other people. I’m glad my roommate has started it again with me to help keep me accountable but the effort that I put it in- is all up to me. And only me.
I’ve been having a really rough couple of weeks and this tonight was exactly what I needed to remind myself how good it felt and how on top of the world it makes me feel. I can only really and truly rely on myself and at the end of the day, I am all I have.
I am all I have.